one of the darkest hours of my life

[argument]
I was stressed
I was tired
I was sick of my point of view
of those endless combinations of thoughts and feelings
I could not stand his silence
then I felt unnecessary
my light faded
I was shaking
I saw nothing but darkness
my legs broke
I felt
I fainted

-suddenly, silence and darkness came

I remember nothing more
but being waken up
faces of people staring at me
your eyes among them

why had my fucking body won again?
then I said "my arm is shivering"

then, black

I woke up again
I started crying
I felt abandoned, confused, ashamed of myself
pity was on my eyes to be seen:
I had been captured by my emotions

and there you were:
angel
savior
friend

the policeman said it to me
"a friend like him is hard to find:
he stood by you all that time
and found no peace till you were fine"

I hate myself for being so childish

Blood pressure
Glass of water
Coke
Subway stations
Me talking
Me feeling remorsal
Me requesting your look
Me feeling sleepy

Me saying goodbye
without a kiss in your mouth

["a tí lo que te mata es la espera"]
Dios mío, ayúdame:
he sobrerreaccionado
["no sobrerreacciones"]
le he causado un mal rato al Erario
mi carne me ha vencido
monstruo fui
ahora lloro y pido Tu Clemencia
ayúdame a sentir menos...
[tu problema es que te entregas todo]
ayúdame a ser fuerte...
dame calma
dame paz
dame paciencia